The Greatest Love Story Never Told

Before I post this poem, writing, or whatever else you want to call it, I want to write and say to myself how extremely proud I am of me. No one will completely understand the courage it is taking me to place this material on the screen. It is one step closer to being more honest and open with my writing. I am hoping that I will continue to grow to the point where I can verbally share, but until that time comes,  I am proud of myself for taking this step. Comments are welcome if they are not mean and nasty... lol (No, I really mean it.)
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The Greatest Love Story Never Told

I am in love with you. This is my truth. When I see you my heart skips a beat. Cardio arrested. Trap me. Confine me. I am a willing prisoner. When I look at you that’s when I really find me. You are my saving grace and the refuge for my soul. In you I see my dreams, my visions for tomorrow.  The sight of you calms my fears and eases my doubts.

Our first meeting was electric. Overcome by your energy. I was revived. Men of your caliber seem to be non-existent. Just in those few moments in your presence I was hooked. As an addict searches for their next high, like an alcoholic will never lose his bottle, I grasp for you.  My reach goes beyond the distant stars. You are the space in which my world hangs. Floating, drifting, suspending. Prodigious excursions will never find a man quite like you.  As the Greek gods are thrown up into the sky to immortalize their being, you are forever ingrained in me because you are my first love you see. I wrap you in and hide you in my bosom. My heart became your secret chamber. My mind is your wonderland. I’ll become like Alice, lost, at the thought of loosing you.

I never had a guy give such sensation just from our conversation, or make my spine curl when he told me things he stood for. Your standard is amazing, unlike any man I have ever know.  You caused me to raise my flag. I surrender to you.  

Yes, I said it. I love you! I love you! I love you. But the saddest thing is that I am saying these words to myself. My heart is yelling these 3 words, but fear muzzles my mouth. Fear tells me 3 words, “Don’t ever tell.”  Fear says, “How do you know that he wants you?” He hasn’t even made a pass at you.  So, I contain these truths as my lips spill lies like we’re just friends, or we’re buddies. Or he’s my like my male bff. I am afraid. If I tell you, would you feel the same way? What happens if the way I feel about you is not returned, and honestly this is my main concern. What will I do then?

So to you, my love will always be a mystery. My lips will never part my secrets. And though my eyes dance and heart bursts when I see you. I will smother its flames. I will silence my cry because I vowed to you that I would always be your friend. A friend is what you needed and that is what I became. But my heart and soul will always think otherwise. And to me, you and me will always be the greatest love story never told.